Happy.

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The life.

The dream.

 

The reality.

I'm having one of those weeks/months when being a stay home mum seems like a mistake.

Actually at this point in time it's more like me being a mum just isn't working.

I was sick last week and the house got out of routine.

I desperately want to get it back in order.

Ok, so who am I kidding. The routine wasn't really happening anyway.

It's always in the plan.

It just doesn't happen.
I've tried all different systems and none seem to work for us.

It feels like we are living in a constant state of utter mess.

I don't know how I can catch up.

And it doesn't feel like normal "I have kids" mess either.

It is like wouldn't pass a health inspection mess.

I am a mess.

I honestly feel like an unfit mother right about now.

Like if community services was to pay me a visit they would take the kids away.

Ok. So perhaps I'm exaggerating slightly.

But that's not the point.

The point is I've lost my mojo.

I long to get back to the place where everyday life flows.

I don't expect it to be easy.

But I'm so over it being this hard.

I just want to live.

I want to enjoy my kids.

I want them to remember me as someone who was willing to have fun.

Right now, in this moment, that's not me.

Right now I am so completely over whelmed I can't see the sunshine.

I remember there was an old Switchfoot song with the line

The shadows prove the sunshine.

Trying to remember that right about now.

Sorry for the cranky post.

Hopefully I'll be feeling better soon.

xx

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I never knew.

I am so shocked and excited this afternoon. 

Today I realised the Anthropologie ships to Australia.

I still can't afford anything.

But the dream is one step closer.

If I had the funds I would be redoing my bedroom with pieces from this collection.

In fact I believe those pillows would go nicely with my current bedspread.

oh the excitment.

Pity about the funding problem.

And this one would be perfect on my lounge.

Oh dear Lord I think I've died and gone to heaven.

I have to stop looking and go back to my house work.

Happy Monday.

xx

Far Far.

Far far, there's this little girl
she was praying for something good to happen to her
from time to time there are colors and shapes
dazzle in her eyes, tickle in her hands
they invent her a new world with
oil skies and aquarel rivers
but don't you run away already
please don't go oh oh

Take a deep breath and dive
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there's a beautiful mess inside
how can you stay outside?
There's a beautiful mess
beautiful mess inside

Oh beautiful, beautiful

Far far there's this little girl
she was praying for something big to happen to her
every night she hears beautiful strange music
it's everywhere there's nowhere to hide
but if it fades she begs
"oh lord don't take it from me, don't take it"

Just look at yourself now
deep inside
deeper than you ever dared
there's a beautiful mess inside
beautiful mess inside

My favorite song today.

Far Far by Yael Naïm

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Sick sick sick.

I had wanted my 100th post to be so amazingly inspirational that maybe you would cry happy tears.

It's not.

I am so sick I think I may die.

I slept for nearly a solid 24hours only waking for more painkillers and fluids.

My husband is officially in the good books for taking the kids off my hands.

The plan was that I would wake up this morning feeling so much better after having slept it off.

It's didn't work.

I still feel like my head will explode at any moment.

My throat is still on fire.

My whole body still aches.

I am so ready to go back to bed.

Party.

This morning I woke up and was practically jumping from my seat with excitment.

I offically have 20 followers. 

I'm all grown up now.

Not sure I have anything interesting enough to warrant any followers but that is completely besides the point cuz today I am happy.

I'm about 2 posts away from my 100th post as well.

Perhaps I should do a little mini giveaway to celebrate.

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Treasure.

I found a treasure yesterday. 

I was giddy with excitment when it was delivered.

Gotta love some op shop goodness.

I also found some side tables which I'm planning on making into a play kitchen for Noah's birthday. 

I'll post some progress pictures as we go along.

xx

The little things.

Sometimes it's the little things that make your day wonderful.

Today I bought myself new jeans. 

A size smaller then my current ones and only half a size bigger then my preKayla jeans.

Thats party worthy me thinks.

(thats not my tush weheartit)

Best Friends.

When I was a kid 'Barbie and the Rockers' was like my absolute favorite movie.

So when getting all excited about the fact that my best friend is coming home after an entire long week (yes a week and I was going crazy) I started subconsciously singing this fabulously 80's sounding song.

Teacups treasure.

Seriously how beautiful are vintage tea cups.

I'll admit. Alot of the 'planning' time for the epic tea party has been spent looking at pictures for inspiration. Totally counts right?

 

I'm still here.

I've been missing in action for the past week.

Not to sure whats happening that's detracting from my blogging time.

Busy with real life I guess.

Sick babies.

Messy toddlers.

Mothers groups.

Planning one epic tea party.

I miss my little home in the corner of the internet.

I'll have to make sure I find time this week.

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